Watch my debut poetry reading for my book, Carbon Footprint.
My first, full-length collection of poems, Carbon Footprint, is now available to purchase on Amazon thanks to Alien Buddha Press. Purchase it here.
I’m excited to announce that my first full-length collection of poems, Carbon Footprint, will be released by Alien Buddha Press on Friday, September 18, 2020. This is a pretty significant milestone for me as a writer. Stay tuned also for further promotional tidbits, announcements, and additional publications. Two poems from the collection will be published in Kaiju Galaxy and Sonder Midwest in late August / early September.
By: Donny Winter
The 90’s Mothra Trilogy are films that have been often overlooked by Godzilla fans in the past because they are aimed more toward young audiences with their whimsical stories and colorful spectacles. However, in recent years, they have received a bit more admiration considering they establish Mothra as one of the only Godzilla-franchise kaiju to star in solo films after having been incorporated in Toho’s Godzilla Cinematic Universe. Considering the upcoming film, Godzilla: King of the Monsters (2019), it’s possible that its creators may be paying homage to the underestimated trilogy in other ways: through the MonsterVerse designs and personalities of Mothra and King Ghidorah.
In the introductory film of the trilogy, Mothra (1996), also known as Rebirth of Mothra, kaiju fans are introduced to a sinister “cousin” of King Ghidorah known as Death Ghidorah, or sometimes referred to as Desghidorah. This adversary proves to be one of the most powerful and unique versions of Ghidorah considering its diverse (and deadly) abilities. Additionally, it is quadrupedal, much darker in color, and more rugged in texture.
Despite some of Death Ghidorah’s body-design differences, it’s arguable that its facial design has served as inspiration for MonsterVerse King Ghidorah’s facial structure. It’s known that this new, Americanized King Ghidorah is brought to life with motion capture effects, so each head has slightly different features. Despite this, the wideness of King Ghidorah’s jaws reflect the wideness of Death Ghidorah’s. Dominantly, prior renditions of King Ghidorah have relatively narrow jaws, including the version featured in the final film of the trilogy, Mothra 3 (1998). Complimentarily, this new Ghidorah’s eyes are were designed with a red-tint, just as Death Ghidorah’s. It also appears that at least one of King Ghidorah’s heads (left in the photo above) has horns closely based on Death Ghidorah’s thick, short horns.
The culmination of the similarities between these two may only be revealed on film in the form of their intended personality. Death Ghidorah is depicted as malevolent, almost finding satisfaction in the destruction it creates, along with the harm it inflicts on Mothra. In fact, the same behavioral observation could be made about King Ghidorah’s violent behavior in Mothra 3. Likewise, in Godzilla: King of the Monsters trailers, King Ghidorah is also seen exhibiting similar malicious behavior in the revealed, yet short battle sequences.
Additionally, it’s strongly possible that Mothra’s design in this ever growing MonsterVerse may have been inspired by her diverse appearances throughout the Mothra Trilogy. In Mothra (1996), the audience is introduced to the first Mothra whose design deviates from original: Mothra Leo. This version sports an appearance favoring earth-tones, has thicker antennae, and has slightly slanted eyes. In Mothra 2 (1997) and Mothra (1998), various transformations shift this Mothra’s colors into a bluer-range, also culminating in a sleeker appearance with longer legs in the final film.
Analogous to Mothra 3’s Rainbow Mothra, Legendary’s version of Mothra has wing patterns favoring blues, greens, and reds. Many may draw attention to the difference in shades, but aside from this version of Mothra, no other has favored any shade of blue as heavily as these. Additionally, the slanted eyes, thick antennae, and sleeker legs in MonsterVerse Mothra echo those of Rainbow Mothra as noted in the comparison above. Despite film producers noting the inspiration taken from the original 1961 Mothra, coloring, wing-shape, facial structure, and body design seem to largely favor Rainbow Mothra’s.
Consequently, observing MonsterVerse Mothra’s agile and benevolently aggressive behavior in various TV spots and trailers may also suggest inspiration taken from Mothra 3’s Rainbow Mothra. In the trilogy, Mothra does not exhibit these qualities until facing the Cretaceous version of King Ghidorah after time traveling to a point in history when a younger, less powerful Ghidorah existed. One well-remembered moment of the film is their violent battle during those ancient times, where Mothra uses claws to physically injure Ghidorah in close-quarter combat. This typically uncharacteristic battle moment may have inspired the need for MonsterVerse Mothra to have longer legs and a more instinctively aggressive personality, considering prior forms of Mothra never utilize such battle tactics.
Despite much of this being speculation based in observation, it would be difficult to imagine Michael Dougherty and his team overlooking the adaptations of both iconic kaiju in the 90’s Mothra films. Perhaps these films deserve a second chance seeing as they contain pivotal moments where the kaiju are arguably given more personality, intent, and motivation than prior adaptations. After all these years, perhaps these films are getting the credit they deserve as creative source material fueling the MonsterVerse adaptations of Mothra and King Ghidorah
What do fans think? Share thoughts on Kaiju Galaxy’s forum or on its Facebook page.
Summary of the Current Situation on YouTube
If you are small content creator on YouTube right now, you likely received an e-mail on January 16th telling you that you will be losing your YouTube partnership on February 20th because your channel “is no longer eligible for monetization because it doesn’t meet the new threshold of 4,000 hours of watchtime in the past 12 months and [have at least] 1,000 subscribers.” Many people believe that this new policy simply impacts monetization. It affects much more than simply monetization for YouTube creators. Small channels (like my own) who have been partnered for years will be losing: algorithmic search priority, access to video professionalization opportunities, access to YouTube networks that provide numerous opportunities, access to social circles with other top-notch content creators, and the list could go on. Additionally, people who choose to speak out against this change in policy are subject to mass-subscriber deletions and view count reductions. While this may be a result of YouTube’s automated systems, the timing is interestingly “coincidental.”
The “Small Channels Big Voices” Movement
My own YouTube channel has been in-and-out of hitting its 2,000 subscriber milestone for the past 3 days because the platform repeatedly mass-deletes subscribers. I have made two videos, one outlining the fact that I’m losing my partnership, the other, speaking out against YouTube’s restriction of smaller creators. After multiple attempts reaching out to large YouTubers (and YouTube itself) with no response, it is clear that small channels like my own only have their few followers to depend on for support.
Many have asked: what else can we possible do but tuck our tails between our legs, leave YouTube, or simply give up on making videos? The answer: we must continue to speak out. Since small content creators only have each other and their audiences to fall back on for support, the only thing we can do is assemble in an attempt to make our concerns heard by YouTube and the upper echelons of large content creators.
The easiest way to assemble as small content creators is through other social media platforms like Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, and Instagram. Assembling can take the form of sharing our content on pages, giving shout outs, collaborating in videos, or circulating this message to YouTube. In our correspondence, we a striving to get YouTube’s attention through using the hashtag: #SmallChannelsBigVoices when communicating or sharing content. This is our way of telling YouTube that we’re here and that we matter.
Other Ways YouTubers and Viewers Can Help
1. Continue to Watch, Share, Comment, Like, and Subscribe:
- As you may expect, the easiest way to support small content creators is by actively engaging with their content: watching their videos all the way through, sharing them on social media platforms, commenting on them, liking them, and even subscribing to their channels. As small creators, we seriously have to fight for every subscriber we get because they mean that much to us.
2. Support the #SmallChannelsBigVoices Movement:
- Supporting this movement will also help considerably; there’s power in numbers and the more people we have sharing this hashtag on Facebook and Twitter, the more coverage we’ll get. Large YouTubers participating would be valuable for our movement as they have large followings that listen to their words. Ultimately, our hope is that if YouTube hears our concerns they may compromise and change this policy so it is more inclusive. Check out the
- Facebook Page, created by YouTuber
3. Post Consistently:
- In order to gain further attention, we may have to share things consistently. Additionally, for small YouTubers, I encourage you to upload quality content daily, if possible. That will increase the likelihood of your views and watch hours increasing.
4. Watch YouTube Videos About This Policy Change:
- Many YouTubers, other than myself, have been making videos about their own fears of losing partnerships. The following playlist contains some of those videos:
To be a small content creator on YouTube means a lot of invalidation, erasure, and difficulty right now. Since YouTube and large YouTubers have remained silent, all we have are our audiences and each other to rely on. Let’s keep fighting for our outlet and continue making a difference.
For inquiries and collaboration requests: message me on YouTube or e-mail me: firstname.lastname@example.org
June is notable to many because it marks a month-long celebration of LGBTQ Pride. For most, this means attending vast pride parades, enjoying vibrant spectacles, and ogling half-naked, Greek-God-esque men. At least, that is often the media’s depiction of pride events.
When I was a young gayling far back in 2007, and even before, I was always fascinated by gay pride celebrations because of the media depiction. I, along with other young gay men I knew, were drawn to pride because of the fearless sexualization of other gay men. There was a certain excitement in a provocatively physical public spectacle. For others, pride celebrations were a safe place for us to meet other guys to potentially connect with on an intimate level.
When attending college for my undergraduate degree, I experienced my first pride-week celebration. It involved the usual festivities: a drag show, open-mic poetry night sharing coming out stories, and game sessions- but it also included a considerable amount of educational moments. College pride-week opened my eyes to the deeper meaning behind Pride. I was introduced to Harvey Milk, who I learned was essentially one of the founding voices of the modern LGBTQ-rights movement. I learned about the Stonewall Riots and what they did for LGBTQ liberation. I learned where we came from, understood where we are now, and began to think about our future.
The other day, a gay friend on my Facebook page made a comment stating: “I can’t wait to go to Pride to see all the hot guys.” The comment left me feeling empty because most people view Pride as simply a spectacle. Many don’t acknowledge its roots in history. Pride is about acknowledging the breadth and complexity of what it means to be LGBTQ. This leads to the question: how do we re-claim this aspect of pride?
We must talk about the history more. We must confront comments like the one prior with education. Pride celebrations are safe-spaces for us to be who we are. They also must be safe places for educators to help remind our community where we’ve come from.
My name is Donny Winter and welcome to my official website and blog. I have finally done it. I have finally created a website and blog that will act as a conduit connecting my YouTube channels to my writing, activism, and music. Regardless what expressive medium I use, activism is the blood that flows through each. It’s the sustenance that inspires my storytelling, the quiet, yet powerful undertow ebbing and flowing through each message.
I have always enjoyed blogging, ever since I was an angsty teenager diligently typing at 2:00 a.m. every morning on LiveJournal. A decade ago, I was finishing high school and transitioning out of one of the most difficult points in my life. Being bullied, for me, became as commonplace as brushing my teeth in the morning. The difference back then was that I chose to reflect on my bullying experiences through the privacy of my closed LiveJournal, not publicly here or on YouTube.
Around 2009, when I was midway through my undergraduate college career, I began to look back with a critical eye on my experiences in both high school and college. I never fully grasped the extent of my story until an individual organizing Pride Week asked me to tell my coming out story in a public setting. I ended up telling it and found that sharing my experiences helped me resolve some unacknowledged pain. This was the first event that lead me to eventually creating my YouTube channel in 2011, where I began my storytelling journey.
Before transitioning into speaking publicly on YouTube, I was an extremely shy, insecure individual who feared speaking out. A lot of this had to do with my high school bullying experiences which centered around the softness of my voice, and how it emasculated me. The severity of this emasculation-fueled bullying ranged from being shoved into walls to being hit in the locker-room, among other things. The insecurity still sticks with me today and it has drastically interfered with my ability to speak. Thankfully, that changed when I subscribed to the YouTube channel Drstrangelove17, which happens to belong to my dear friend, R.E. She introduced me to v-logging, and weekly, I’d watch her bravely discuss sensitive subjects. I’d watch her confront her insecurities, respond to controversy, and philosophically reflect on life’s nuances. Immediately, I recognized how courageous she was for telling her stories and I realized that I had the power to do it as well.
Reflecting back on 2007, I created a YouTube channel but it never lifted off the ground. It was a smattering of disjointed funny videos and profane rants. It wasn’t until I found Chris Crocker’s YouTube channel that I understood how important it was to discuss more serious issues – like LGBTQ rights. Chris was (and still is) an individual I look up to as one of the foundation-layers of what I now call social justice education on YouTube. Over the years, he and I eventually spoke on numerous occasions, which inspired further confidence in my speaking ability. With both R.E. and Chris Crocker’s examples churning my inspiration, I knew it was almost time to set out on my biggest adventure.
Some time later, in 2011, I mustered the gumption to create a channel that allowed me to be funny, but also reflective. That was the moment when I realized that storytelling was easier than I originally believed. The seed R.E. planted eventually sprouted when I recognized the bravery of other friends telling their stories across different social networking sites and message boards. My friends Cyndi (streamofawareness) and Tiffany Gray (Tiffany Gray Music) also played pivotal roles in building my speaking confidence. They encouraged me to be myself and were some of the first who embraced me as an openly gay man. Now, together, all three of us have become storytelling activists. We strive to help bullying victims become survivors through the Affirmations For Bullying Victims movement and we create awareness about other topics many never discuss. Also, thanks to their musical prowess and encouragement, I’ve been empowered to create a YouTube channel dedicated to my own poetic and musical passions. (Donny Winter Music)
Despite YouTube becoming my outlet, I never recognized myself as an activist until I met actor, activist, and musician, Ace Lundon. After having watched some of my videos, he eventually approached me to be a guest co-host on his show, Lundon Calling. This lead to a friendship I deeply cherished. Over the years he would always tell me, “Donny, you are who you’ve been becoming,” a signal that I’m always shifting, growing, becoming something more. I kept his words close to my heart as I continued to speak out with greater intensity. Eventually, our friendship led to him asking Sean Chandler and myself to be a co-hosts on the The Lundon Bridge talk show, where we bridge the gaps between three generations of gay men through discussing current events. Recently, Ace passed on, but his words and his impression of my ability to speak out will always resonate throughout my life.
In 2014, I made the choice to return to school for my M.A. in English. During that time, my mentor and friend, Dr. Rose Gubele, helped me reclaim my creative voice, which helped me find the confidence to discuss even deeper subjects on YouTube that I would have originally feared to address. She helped show me that there is one thing more important than being a social justice warrior, that is being a social justice educator. With the experience of college-level teaching under my belt, I realized that activism and social justice on YouTube are even more powerful when they are complimented by the passion to educate. That passion made me realize that teaching in the classroom and on YouTube is not just about speaking out, but also about listening.
Overall, I am moved by the incredible opportunities and strengths YouTube has given me. One simple act of storytelling opened me up to so much more. In late 2012, two of my videos went viral after I chose to publicly stand up for my friend, Whitney Kropp, who was being bullied at the high school I once attended. In 2015, I branched out further and started the Universal Journeys show with my beloved mentor and friend, Dr. Brenda L. Bates, who helped me find the confidence to explore activism and its connection to spirituality. Eventually, also in 2016, I was asked to partner with Outspeak, a YouTube network that would give me further opportunities to speak out on specific subjects centered around politics, depression, bullying, and LGBTQ issues. Shortly after that, my choice to reveal my survival of sexual assault on YouTube allowed me the opportunity to present at a national conference in Houston, TX themed around social justice. Most baffling of all, I was told upon meeting one of my biggest celebrity inspirations (Adam Lambert) that he recognized me from my videos. That showed me that what I say really does get out there. Now that I look back on how far I’ve come, I realize that the small choice of telling a story helped me heal in ways I would have never imagined. It helped me reclaim the voice I was robbed of in high school. It has revealed to me that I can take all of that pain and transform it into something more powerful: storytelling.
Storytelling isn’t always sitting around campfires reflecting on good times. Sometimes, it’s dumping a bucket of ice-cold water over ourselves. It puts out those old embers that burned in us for years and allows us to feel the refreshing chill of acceptance. I cannot begin to explain how much my family, friends, teachers, and followers have empowered me on this journey. All I can say is that I’ll continue to do this. I’ll continue to listen, speak out, share stories, and show people that even the most quiet, insecure, bullying survivor can find the voice he thought he never had.